Even if I try to pretend that things are OK, I just can’t bring myself to tweet a lie, that I miss her, too. I’ve been putting it off for hours now. What is one measly reply compared to a possible confrontation? She probably already sent a text message, asking if we should meet tomorrow, and I keep ignoring my phone because I don’t want to know.

It’s just…she’s a good friend in general. She’s been one of my best friends for years now. Should it really matter that I know she will never understand that I’d happily wave an LGBT flag, and a hundred pansexual flags? Should it really matter that I know she will badmouth me to her other friends if she finds out that I prefer pretty men and handsome women, lesbians who are hot as hell, and transexuals who laugh their sexy masculine laugh? I know that I can’t trust her with the person I’m growing into, but can’t I just…pretend that the one she would classify as a ‘freak’ doesn’t exist?

I should just keep quiet and minimize my involvement in her (bigoted and ignorant) discussions about homosexuality with our other friends. It was easy to hold my tongue and tune them out…but I admit I’m still mad about it after two months. It feels a bit heavy and I still feel like punching or bitch-slapping something.

I just realized that I got really upset about it. I tried to brush it off but I guess I was actually mad and waiting to implode.

I guess it’s not so easy keeping quiet. 🙊😓